Stop telling me happiness is a choice
don't you think I would choose it if I could?
Stop telling me to snap out of it
its not that easy. I wish it was.
Stop saying it can't be that bad,
it is. Oh God it is.

Stop giving me advice,
you have no right to, you have no idea what it’s like.
Stop telling me it’s okay,
because right now it’s not.
Stop telling me it will get better soon
because there is no way for you to know that.
Stop telling me I’m exaggerating,
I’m not, I only wish I was.

Stop saying you don't understand why I won't get out of bed,
you don't understand because you can't see how bad I’m hurting.
Stop saying I’m not trying hard enough,
I’m trying harder than any one person should have to.
Stop telling me to smile
I’ll smile when I have a reason for smiling.
Stop pretending you know what I feel like
because you don't.

Let me tell you you have no fucking idea.

I realized that EVERYONE isn't perfect.

I realized that EVERYONE isn't perfect. We all make mistakes...either that are minor or life changing. I could really go through this statement once again, but I'm adding on. When someone brings you down, just don't dwell on it and all. Don't give up, keep on moving on. Sure rejection is a bitch, and I'll probably deal with a lot of it in the next couple of months. We're all struggling with something, and chances are, we'll accomplish something in life.

On the other end, people that I know are struggling in life, that are really close to me. I deleted my work from every site that I use. It's a shame, right? If you want to ask me for them, go ahead and do so, I'll show you privately. It makes it think that we're both failures in that case. If anyone doesn't read and or anything, I guess that I'll stop and put them on my own book just for me to see.

What I don't get about relationships, is basically the whole concept. What really frustrates me right now is that my last boyfriend (like way back from mid last year), before the one I have now, was working well, but fell apart just because "he was going through friend troubles." (Sure. I hear this all the fucking time!) Next thing I know, he's dating some other person, deeply in love with her, and just basically thought like I never existed in that part. He was the first person that I truely loved, and fell pretty hard to a certain extent for. It was complicated, seemed right several months ago, and now every time I think about it, it makes me...I don't know. Pretty angry, it seems. Did he lie? What...really happened with the reason? It makes me sick, that's what it is. I regret wasting a month out of my life for that. Our friendship is now ruined. I even avoid speaking or even going near him. It's like whatever, I'm now done with this. I moved on, and I'm happy where I am with someone else, if you really care.

There is nothing in life more painful than losing a loved one,
the love is there forever though,
we never really lose them only from the physical plane,
because where love exists there can be no loss.
i never thought life would be this hard everyone says it`ll get better,
but i`m still waiting for that to happen,for this world to stop hating
so i can wake up from this nightmare that never seems to end,
With all the hatred and sorrow it just keeps going,
Everyday is so dark and grey,theres nothing i can do,
My whole world is crashing down on me and all my dreams are..