A Piece of Hope

new era has been a revolving
the carved gray light on the way
a portrait of despair and hope that dispelled
with the existence of god chairs
The Incredibly Deadly Viper ..

I stood among the graves of frozen
sang the amorphous
who was ridiculed sky
"We mourn, do not you know that?"

rustling of sand spread the good news
it is like a steel
walk among the dark
The angels who are reluctant to say hello
and give her happiness flashlight

smile floating among water
who are reluctant to greet the sun
there printed their names, their
who had been abandoned by the world
by tyranny
that even with a piece of meat
blood will never obscure
grudges that have been etched
at the bottom of the water

The voice of dew crying

We were not frightened of crying.
Not frightened of dying
When we needed the complete struggle
However the spirit was frozen by us...
We could not Moving
Because we indeed not the great person.
The diesel fuel storm that changed all of them
Beforehand peacefulness like that was easy for us
Currently we must build billions of palaces so that could be real

Looked for the gold coin made us tired
The life like bad paper was not significant
But the world made us continue to dream
Made hope the poor blind yearn for how to go to the cloud
There were no tear crying
when this body was tired
Llet the spirit flew with one million dreams
Sang together in the mass gravestone
fought to become the war doll that was full of blood
did not have regret

PhantoM Of Gothic (my New Song!!!)

She came every time
In each night in my dream
I heard her whispering
About the life that was slow began to be lose
In shallowed the cold fog

Choir:
I did not fine my soul
I did not fine my breath

Phantom:
Listen to the death song
The voice from the phantom of gothic to night

She Live, she truly lived...she phantom of gothic

phantom:
No need to smile for life
althought the wound in the body continues to stick
I will have thousands wings to fly....

reff:
She Began to haunt the world
Started harted in mind
Beautiful has been lose and darkness the human heart

Heavy rain over the roof to bring on silence
Phantom of gothic telling stories about life

The travel on short life has already started
A sketch of a dream about buried
In an old house full of blood
The is no peace...

Sometimes I wish..

I could take away all your pain..
Frame it up for all to see.
Where it can't hurt you and it can't hurt me.
Sometimes I wonder..
Why we stand up in the rain..
Wonder why love is in the end worth all this pain.
Sometimes I dream..
of you my dear friend.
Though sometimes I dream of what the world will be like..
At the very end..
Where everyone dies,
And goes into heaven.
Where everyone loves,
And you can wish for anything at anytime.
No need to wait forever
Sometimes I pray..
For you and your friends..
Hoping that everything will be alright for you today.
And you can smile, a true smile in every single way.
That you'd just be happy.
Sometimes I imagine..
A whole new world where everyone loves, and there's no hate.
Where the clock stops ticking, and we are never to late.
Sometimes I hope against hope..
That I'll fall asleep and never wake up.
And that all girls have no need for silly make-up.
Please if you're hurting,
I really need to know,
Tell me where it hurts.
So I don't have to watch you go.
I'll frame up your pain,
And together we'll both stand in the rain.
Watching the picture, of all the things that are bad.
No need to ever be sad.
To frame up your pain, in a picture you see.
Then everyone can see, that no more pain is hurting you and me.
We're free.
For our chains have been lifted,
if only you'd tell me where it hurts,
And I can take away all the pain, you were 'gifted'...
Sometimes I wonder.. why I even care.
But then I realize that I knew that answer all along.
Caring makes me strong.
Though sometimes it hurts me real bad.
The pain..
always makes me real sad.
So I just remind myself, I'm doing it for you,
I'll stand in the rain.
If you'll stand up too.

how I was able to start a word that never has an end.
what I feel today is much deeper than I think about death.
how can I go on the tragedy that I can't stop?
god? what with destiny?
whether the death was the end of me when I dream of peace??
I lost my dad
I lost my friend
I lost my hope
I wanted to slap the liars who interfere with my life is cold .. although in one day I was able to stand up to be straight. but I would remember their faces that betrayed to me. I will remember even if I fell asleep ..

I have never felt as sad as this.
I have never felt so bland like this
but what I see
I just saw the tears
how do I stop it?
if I'm as strong as them?
what she would be angry if you know who I am??
please stop. please hide
at least that's all I ask of you Lord
even though I know you are now only a silent

For The Fallen Dreams

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Come step into my life
I love rock music
Turn it up loud
When you are a Gothic like me
The lyrics will make you proud
Step into the darkness
Say good bye to the light
We live in an eternity
Were every day is night
I know you think I'm freaky
Go analyse me
But in my heart I know
A Gothic is what I want to be ♥

Trauma

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The Dead Man Whisper...

Breath a word the dead man
I know my face have no more mirror
I see that emit a stream of lifting my gravestone
Along we all tragedy
Dead oh...whisper of the world
Where peachfullness which i have to dreams?

In hymn the dead man
Bringing goods news in the middle of the night
To one have never been fallen aslip
And those who sold the pass of the life

It's voice to make fragrance
Even he life in the congelation bloods of human being.
He's eye have never shone
He's ignore what that smile.
live to teach he's obstinate

Seriously? what is a friend, whats it like to have somone their for you?
somone to laugh, have fun and enjoy life with?
whats it like to feel protected?
whats it like to have somone to be their for u as a friend?
whats it like for somone to be loyal to you?

why do i feel im loseing everything in the space of a month?!
why do i feel like i need to cut when i promised i would never do it for the rest of my life?
i havent done this in 2 years....should i fall back?

why am i here?
what purpose do i give?
who am i?
what am i?
who are you?
why is everything like a battle?
why are people so quick to judge?
why do people judge me cause dyed hair ?
why am i writing this?
god sake i dont know

i just dont know anymore
what a friend is...
who people are
what loyalty is


TO MY EX---

I gave you my heart, i gave you my soul, i gave you me, i offerd you a life, a ew hope, and what did you do, you laughed, you walked off, you disapeared, you thre me away like nothing, 1 year 4 months, you were my fiancé we planned it all, you led me on, you even let me say i was gonna get a job, and a house near you & not forgetting how you said you thought i was ugly !!! i told you what i wanted to do the other day, you laughed saying i was so stupid that i cant do that, you snigger now, you believe in what you want NOW but one fucking day youl realise what you've lost, and you are starting to now huh arnt you the way you spoke to me the other day, how you were starting to think, how you said you couldnt be friends with me right now, you fucking think i wanna be friends with you? you think i will be he little puppy dog that follows you into all the happyness you have right now?! yeah happyness, you kidding yourself sweetie, youve changed so much i couldnt care less about you, even if you came running back its too late, this ugly emo bitch as you called me has moved on, has a new heart, has a new soul, has a new everything, il never hear your name again, il never kiss or hold you again, because i have somone who TRUELY understands me, you wee quick to move on too wernt you meeting another guy a week later, ha you know somthing i met another one the day after you dumpted me, you ment fuck all, so if you are reading this, i swear to god i hope you are, youl realise what uv missed out on, look at all my friends on vf,fb,whatever in real life too... im so much better then you, why would u lead somone on, why would u agree to marry somone and why in the name of christ would you even say "i love you" this person everyone, i could name names, but im not going to, he isnt worth it, anyway, .. die please, thank you x

you are the one who made me
be the man who i was
now everyday is coming
and i dont want to lose
this sadness

its all ive ever known
its all youve ever saw
its who i was today
now that your way

i cant go back lots feelings down this path today.
and i see the way you move when you hear my name
you shrug you shoulders down the road
you think that i am brocken

who are you trying kid
now that your alone.....

i want you to be here
i want you to see me
at my worst
but you look away is disply
al the senses you've lost
how can that be

i walk down the road.
i look at the sky above
i saw your face up there
now im looking hell.




all i ever wanted was to be the one
all i ever wanted was to see you shine
now your gone, now i'm what am i saposed to do.

all i hear is you
and all i fear is you
youve got your new life

no time for me today....
its all ive ever known
its all youve ever shown
its who i was today
no that your away
now that your away

i want this face to be gone
i just want to belong
but your cowardness of a voice will stay
in my life to my dismay..

before i post this i just want to say the lyrics mean nothing
its just the top of my head, its how i was feeling
i dont agree with half the stuff i said only some parts and thats love and getting better
to anyone who doesn't like it, i couldnt care i am not taking it personally, because like i have stated
its only from the top of my head
anyway here it is enjoy if you can lol:


Im who i am, i can't change the way i think and feel
i was who i was, i can change to feel,
i know what ive done, but i dont know what i've become
i cant make sense of this

im walking down an icey hall
shaterd books are falling on me
im struggleing to breath
struggling to believe that this is becoming real

but i'm scared and i feel ive got no place to go
no and noooo
i just want abit of comfort in this dream of losing my mind
i take your hand and i never let go of the promises i once said

i held your head while you were burning down
i guess ive got you to heal, but i need
a little time to make
and i feel a little time to shake

these cobb webs are becoming so real
the pain it never seems to heal
and the fire coming down
this ground is moving away
these games are harder to play

so i just want to give in
i just want to fit in
nothing in this life was so ment to be
and i just want to be who i was and never look forward
ever again
il fuck them up with the razor i have
il fuck them up deep down the throat that they scream

i didnt want to hurt
i didnt want to bleed
i didnt want to feel everying beneath me
i didnt want to heal
i didnt want to feel
i didnt want to be the man who i am

all i can feel is the painess so real
and all i need is you by myside
i sit and wait
i sit for fate
i sit to believe that i can heal
and i sit and hear
al the judgements going by

i just need to get out
im going to try and heal
stop now
they say i need help
they say i wont heal
they tell me in the back of my mind

now i promise you now
i am saying how i am
im being true to myself
are you understanding
ive got no beat
ive got not one bit of melody
this is not a song
but the feelings i feel

my heads turning to stone
and all these feelings are going

not for you
but for the one that i lost
i lost him last night
he was my dream
he was the one to make it seem all real
and they sit and judge him
they sit and judge me
i think will it be best if i sit and fucking join him
now im moving on from what i was on

now im singing on of how long this pain has been going down
im alone in this room with a lamp right next to me
dreaming of what can be

yeah yeah yeah
and a no no no
i want to seem so realllll
but im not done
im not giving up
im just being true to myself now
these lyrics are too
help me come through
all this pain and sadness that i feel
my heads turning to shit
and i just want to rip
every single feeling outa my head

every razor crushing down
breaking skin and breaking bones
bleeding through my old t shirts coming through the one thing i knew
being with you seems so far from now
holding your hand makes me not want to frown
im being who i am and u love me for that
u dont judge me and u dont want to leave me like them

they hurt me
and theyve hurt you its time to tell them
that TWO CAN MAKE IT FUCKING THROUGH
ours lifes were so weak
we got up from our feet
and we digged our holes of what we had become.....

now your so free
you know what to say
and how the hell am i saposed to act like the one who doesnt care
how am i saposed to act the one who leave u there

i cant
i wont
i need u so bad
i wont
i cant
i need you tonight
so take these notes
and save them away
every single day is like a dream come true
every single day was ment for me and you

now lets move on
forget about the shit
youl save me and il save you

and we will watch them burn
we will watch them bleed
because after all
theyre the ones who created this fucking seed

theyre the ones who planted it in our minds

and we were to blind to see the truth that was gave from behind
now lets just talk
and they can mock
lets just walk and they can forget us
lets move on
above the rest

but one day i will be like you and trust you like you trusted me
i wont ever
hurt you now
i know i said that and u were like a cheap kill
getting led away
to the slaughter house
when i said those words
you tore ur heart up and down
im sorry you know
it wasnt nothing
it wasnt somthing
and i mean these words that im about to say

just promise me that youl stay
promise me
be with me
hold me
and love me
stay right there
move right there
no
no
no
no
be with me
my minds going blank and
its back to the drawing bored back to the same old crown
no
no
no
no!!!!!

i need to kick this habbit of lies
i need to kick this habbit inside
my minds going to waste
im happy for a minute
im sad for minutes
and my hours are dieing
my head is dieing
my heart isnt dead
all i want to do is go to fucking bed

why am i still here
writeing this up
why am i not just cutting me up

i will never give in
il stay for the win
il fight forever for us
and for my mind
it can only get better
and il send away it like a letter
nothing more
nothing less all the things i have done
i didnt want it to happen
all the things i did
it was nothing please believe me
love and never leave me
your my only hope
the one who gives me hope
the one who makes me feel alive


i love you right now
il love you today
please just always stay
i need you to be there
i need you to understand
i need you hear tonight

The senses beging to shake
I learn from my mistakes
I never ment to hurt you in this way

I just wanted to be the one that we could love
I never loved such a boy as much as i loved you
today

and i start to shake from hearing your voice down from hell
I begin to feel sensesless, i never wanted to misss what i lost today
I start to hear youre voice out cold

I start to hear my heart break
All those lies and tears from my mistakes
But now i have your blood on my hands

All i ever wanted was a sense of love
A sense of hope, now its all gone and i feel
Ive lost everything
to my displey...

I just wanted to be here
You just wanted to lie
You stabbed me in my back
You loved me and i flew back

Now as we grow our spirits crush from this wasted time
We called love.
And you and your friend you think you
Can walk all over me

But i can see !
The sense beging to shake
Ive learnt from my mistakes
I never ment to hurt you in this way
I just wanted you to stay

But i held on i gotted what i wanted today yeah
I met somone new
I know
You feel so bad for what you have done
Please dont say a word
Please dont count me out
Please just go and leave
I dont need you hear
I dont want to fear
Just leave me
Before I die
Before I live

All i need is him voice
All i need is him tears
And i need is to leave you
behind in memories today.

She heres a scream, inside the faded lights
an untold story that bleads black and white
he follows you in there
the grounds that you've awoke, just like the dead man inside he'll rip you apart



don't believe a word he says
he's a small little kid
and an untold story that frowns deep inside

before he goes he would have took it all
the passion he has got has screamed out alive

take it go, leave right now, he wants to kill every cell
this place is drowning and all the frowns come to show
he can't make you what you arn't so just get out and run show.....

so get out and run show, so get out and run show

now he bleeds down, the colours of his face, bleeding down, its a knife between his face
he needs a kick now, the threats he has made

is an untold story of a man that he is, before he dies he would have bleed out the strengh

don't believe a word he says he's a small little kid

so get your arse out and lets run the show, lets show eveyrbody what they need to know
the colours are dead and he can't complain, after most of the blame he is named and shamed.

its an untold story the frowns deep inside

I want to feel something, but not feel myself. I want to disappear, I want to shrink into nothing and go completely numb. I don't want to think anymore, I just want to feel sick to my bones, I want to feel as though I'm ill and weightless. I want to push myself to the edge. I want to feel the tip of the ledge... and fall forever. I want to look poorly, I want to feel, see, touch, breathe my bones. I want to forget. I want to run, as fast as I can. I want to scream and run, for miles until I can't run anymore, then come back and feel sick. I want to go as far as I can go, until I'm sick to the core. I don't want sympathy, I don't want your pathetic opinions, I just want to feel something, but not feel myself. I want to disappear, but still be present. I want to feel nothing, I don't want to think, I want to just barely function. I want white walls, test tubes and scale numbers. I want single digits, I want to feel utterly weightless. I want to feel sick and ill and disgusting, but by then, I'll be far more than content.

I'm breaking. Slowly but surely, I'm shattering. Like a mirror being smashed in slow motion, all the shards of sharp glass falling like snowflakes but landing like raindrops. Its only now that my head can suffice on such little food and piece together the memories you left. Wide awake and running on empty; these tears are what keep me alive. I have nothing; I feel nothing, but a wide hole in my chest with emptiness fading through the edges and center of my stomach. The sun shines and my cheeks glisten; I fill myself with nothing; yet I can still cry. I admit; I miss you. I miss you more than I miss who I used to be. You were always by my side, you were my life and I have to find a new way of living... But I didn't think it would be this hard. They say love never dies, but my love you died; and you took every part of me you had with you. I'm trying so hard to go back to who I used to be; but I got so used to you; molding my life around you... This girl is broken; shards have broken off from different places and soon her whole body will crumble. The pieces to sharp to put back together, to small to matter but big enough to cut you into so many little pieces. Try to repair me and you'll end up looking at yourself in every little piece of me that lays scattered on the floor. I had my eyes closed, and as soon as I opened; I was blinded by all the things you stopped me from seeing. But I haven't learned anything; I don't remember anything; all I think of is you. You let me down, you lied to me. I feel so betrayed, I feel so broken. I love you, I still love you after everything you've done. My life will never be complete, but you'll always be a ghost with me.

I miss alot of people, I know theres no use in it,
since its not actually going to get me anywhere;
but I'm starting to notice that a part of me is constantly empty.


I just want to know the fucking truth, okay?
If you're out there somewhere,
I'll find you, and you will spill your guts, your heart, and your soul;
out on the floor in front of me, and I will discover the truth.

Then I'll kick you in the head, and you can get fucked.

Fuck you, fuck you and thankyou very much.

You've fucked me up so bad to the point where I cant even function.

I'm happy with myself, so fucking happy.
Yet so angry, so fucking angry.

You've pushed me so far, I cant get out. I don't want out.
You're a part of me now, and I can't let go, or I'll lose myself again.

Maybe realising my past, remembering, reliving,
Is a way to find myself again. What the fuck;
what if I relive my past and end up forgetting who I am again.

Vicious Fucking Circle.

I'm so fucking sick of your shit,
Can't you just figure everything out.
I'm sick of being so fucking confused.
Who the fuck are you, Shannon!
Figure it out or it'll be too fucking late.