before i post this i just want to say the lyrics mean nothing
its just the top of my head, its how i was feeling
i dont agree with half the stuff i said only some parts and thats love and getting better
to anyone who doesn't like it, i couldnt care i am not taking it personally, because like i have stated
its only from the top of my head
anyway here it is enjoy if you can lol:


Im who i am, i can't change the way i think and feel
i was who i was, i can change to feel,
i know what ive done, but i dont know what i've become
i cant make sense of this

im walking down an icey hall
shaterd books are falling on me
im struggleing to breath
struggling to believe that this is becoming real

but i'm scared and i feel ive got no place to go
no and noooo
i just want abit of comfort in this dream of losing my mind
i take your hand and i never let go of the promises i once said

i held your head while you were burning down
i guess ive got you to heal, but i need
a little time to make
and i feel a little time to shake

these cobb webs are becoming so real
the pain it never seems to heal
and the fire coming down
this ground is moving away
these games are harder to play

so i just want to give in
i just want to fit in
nothing in this life was so ment to be
and i just want to be who i was and never look forward
ever again
il fuck them up with the razor i have
il fuck them up deep down the throat that they scream

i didnt want to hurt
i didnt want to bleed
i didnt want to feel everying beneath me
i didnt want to heal
i didnt want to feel
i didnt want to be the man who i am

all i can feel is the painess so real
and all i need is you by myside
i sit and wait
i sit for fate
i sit to believe that i can heal
and i sit and hear
al the judgements going by

i just need to get out
im going to try and heal
stop now
they say i need help
they say i wont heal
they tell me in the back of my mind

now i promise you now
i am saying how i am
im being true to myself
are you understanding
ive got no beat
ive got not one bit of melody
this is not a song
but the feelings i feel

my heads turning to stone
and all these feelings are going

not for you
but for the one that i lost
i lost him last night
he was my dream
he was the one to make it seem all real
and they sit and judge him
they sit and judge me
i think will it be best if i sit and fucking join him
now im moving on from what i was on

now im singing on of how long this pain has been going down
im alone in this room with a lamp right next to me
dreaming of what can be

yeah yeah yeah
and a no no no
i want to seem so realllll
but im not done
im not giving up
im just being true to myself now
these lyrics are too
help me come through
all this pain and sadness that i feel
my heads turning to shit
and i just want to rip
every single feeling outa my head

every razor crushing down
breaking skin and breaking bones
bleeding through my old t shirts coming through the one thing i knew
being with you seems so far from now
holding your hand makes me not want to frown
im being who i am and u love me for that
u dont judge me and u dont want to leave me like them

they hurt me
and theyve hurt you its time to tell them
that TWO CAN MAKE IT FUCKING THROUGH
ours lifes were so weak
we got up from our feet
and we digged our holes of what we had become.....

now your so free
you know what to say
and how the hell am i saposed to act like the one who doesnt care
how am i saposed to act the one who leave u there

i cant
i wont
i need u so bad
i wont
i cant
i need you tonight
so take these notes
and save them away
every single day is like a dream come true
every single day was ment for me and you

now lets move on
forget about the shit
youl save me and il save you

and we will watch them burn
we will watch them bleed
because after all
theyre the ones who created this fucking seed

theyre the ones who planted it in our minds

and we were to blind to see the truth that was gave from behind
now lets just talk
and they can mock
lets just walk and they can forget us
lets move on
above the rest

but one day i will be like you and trust you like you trusted me
i wont ever
hurt you now
i know i said that and u were like a cheap kill
getting led away
to the slaughter house
when i said those words
you tore ur heart up and down
im sorry you know
it wasnt nothing
it wasnt somthing
and i mean these words that im about to say

just promise me that youl stay
promise me
be with me
hold me
and love me
stay right there
move right there
no
no
no
no
be with me
my minds going blank and
its back to the drawing bored back to the same old crown
no
no
no
no!!!!!

i need to kick this habbit of lies
i need to kick this habbit inside
my minds going to waste
im happy for a minute
im sad for minutes
and my hours are dieing
my head is dieing
my heart isnt dead
all i want to do is go to fucking bed

why am i still here
writeing this up
why am i not just cutting me up

i will never give in
il stay for the win
il fight forever for us
and for my mind
it can only get better
and il send away it like a letter
nothing more
nothing less all the things i have done
i didnt want it to happen
all the things i did
it was nothing please believe me
love and never leave me
your my only hope
the one who gives me hope
the one who makes me feel alive


i love you right now
il love you today
please just always stay
i need you to be there
i need you to understand
i need you hear tonight