Seriously? what is a friend, whats it like to have somone their for you?
somone to laugh, have fun and enjoy life with?
whats it like to feel protected?
whats it like to have somone to be their for u as a friend?
whats it like for somone to be loyal to you?

why do i feel im loseing everything in the space of a month?!
why do i feel like i need to cut when i promised i would never do it for the rest of my life?
i havent done this in 2 years....should i fall back?

why am i here?
what purpose do i give?
who am i?
what am i?
who are you?
why is everything like a battle?
why are people so quick to judge?
why do people judge me cause dyed hair ?
why am i writing this?
god sake i dont know

i just dont know anymore
what a friend is...
who people are
what loyalty is


TO MY EX---

I gave you my heart, i gave you my soul, i gave you me, i offerd you a life, a ew hope, and what did you do, you laughed, you walked off, you disapeared, you thre me away like nothing, 1 year 4 months, you were my fiancé we planned it all, you led me on, you even let me say i was gonna get a job, and a house near you & not forgetting how you said you thought i was ugly !!! i told you what i wanted to do the other day, you laughed saying i was so stupid that i cant do that, you snigger now, you believe in what you want NOW but one fucking day youl realise what you've lost, and you are starting to now huh arnt you the way you spoke to me the other day, how you were starting to think, how you said you couldnt be friends with me right now, you fucking think i wanna be friends with you? you think i will be he little puppy dog that follows you into all the happyness you have right now?! yeah happyness, you kidding yourself sweetie, youve changed so much i couldnt care less about you, even if you came running back its too late, this ugly emo bitch as you called me has moved on, has a new heart, has a new soul, has a new everything, il never hear your name again, il never kiss or hold you again, because i have somone who TRUELY understands me, you wee quick to move on too wernt you meeting another guy a week later, ha you know somthing i met another one the day after you dumpted me, you ment fuck all, so if you are reading this, i swear to god i hope you are, youl realise what uv missed out on, look at all my friends on vf,fb,whatever in real life too... im so much better then you, why would u lead somone on, why would u agree to marry somone and why in the name of christ would you even say "i love you" this person everyone, i could name names, but im not going to, he isnt worth it, anyway, .. die please, thank you x