In the flames you tried so hard to extinguish with fear of falling

A new chapter has begun in my life, and its not even the most important one yet. I have no one to call my own. I have no one to say "you complete me" to. Correction; i do. I do not know what i want to do, i do not know what i will be able to do. I want so much, yet i recieve so little. I am on an adventure. An adventure to an exotic place, in the back of my mind, way in the back where there is no light and no sound. This place is a void of my imagination, and a void where no one else knows. This place has flowers. It has love. It has all the wonders anyone can ever think of that will make them happy. This void will make me happy. This void is my heart. And it is void, and empty. Who can save us all when we're gone? Where do we all go when we die? Do we all die alone? Who is scared and who doesn't fear death at all? I fear death greatly. That is my only fear. I believe in re-incarnation. I will be a Wolf. A hunter of the night. I will know when you are awake and when you are angry. I will hunt you down, and i will kill. I will kill. I look forward to see the future after i am dead and gone. I know we will find a way to survive in the bodies of others, just like i am now. Just like we all are now.

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i enter the land of dreams
my mind goes awhirl,
so many things i ougtent have seen
many things i dont understand.
my pain, my hurt my desire,
forced into my otherself.

i am safe inside myself
no longer on this earth
far away where i cant be found.

do u feel my words of hurt
can u see my marks of pain
i am out of my sanctity, myself, my home.
my life is lead for me
my happiness gone
you alone are the key
the key back to the sanctity of myself, of my soul.
please unlock me
touch me deep
set me free